Porn Date

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Confession: I’ve never watched porn before this Porn Date.

Second confession: I mean, I watched porn when I was a teen, but it was with friends. Before you start thinking, “well, that’s hot,” let me explain. We would put porn on, sit fully clothed, and laugh at it (I never said I was a mature teen). It was something we knew we weren’t supposed to be doing, and at that time it neither turned us on nor enhanced our sex drives.

During this (very recent) sexual transition in my life – you know, uncovering the Quean in cuckquean – I realized this fun fact about me (that I’d never watched porn for its actual purpose: to get aroused, to get off), and decided it would be a good first step in the process.

You see, I have a list:

  1. Have a porn date
  2. Watch Master J hit on another woman
  3. Watch Master J kiss another woman
  4. Watch Master J receive/give oral to another woman
  5. Watch Master J dominate another woman

Perhaps I’ll come up with more steps between 3 and 5, but for now, this is my experimentation plan to understand my comfort level regarding a full-blown cuckquean experience.

So, let’s not waste anymore precious time and get straight to the juice, shall we?

I made a light dinner – green salad with prosciutto, tomatoes, and a nice balsamic vinaigrette sauce. I bought a beautiful bottle of red wine, some cheese and bread (I’m in France, guys – this is considered “light”).

During our meal, Master J asked what my expectations were for the evening. I giggled timidly. The whole day I was just imagining him going down on me, while I watch two women on-screen, doing the same to each other. So, my answer may or may not have been for him to “eat me out like a dog” and “pretend my pussy is his desert” and “to be as messy as possible.” Of course all of this happened in due time, but first, we had to pick the porn.

Master J surprised me with a female-female dominant/submissive video, whereby the first six minutes (which he’d never seen before, as he always skipped ahead to the “good” stuff – no surprise) was taken up by this sexy blonde dressing herself in ass-less / crotch-less chaps, long leather gloves, and kidnaping a lovely brunette lady, who was casually washing her dishes (in lingerie, with her breasts nearly falling out, I must add). The scene cuts, and then opens to the brunette tied up, spread eagle, on a red couch. The blonde, who we now understand is the dominant, begins violently shoving a black dildo down the brunette’s throat. Now, before you get all freaked out – for those of you who aren’t quite into the violent side of things (sorry, I am) – the brunette ends up begging for it. The whole charade turns into a crazed sexual domination that more or less revolves around this black dildo (I must say, these women are talented).

During this first video, Master J and I were touching each other and watching. We had decided that keeping our underwear on was sexy – and also, we live in the French Alps, so our apartment is kind of freezing! Of course,him the clothes didn’t last long, and me being the impatient sub that I am – and realizing how deeply this all turned me on – I put myself on my knees, and had Master J fuck me as we both watched the on-screen domination. At some point, I wanted to be like the submissive. So, I got down on my knees to please him. In between strokes, I asked him if he was watching the screen. He replied yes. I asked him if he liked it. He replied yes. With every yes and every stroke, and every moan I heard coming from him and the video, the wetter I became. That only meant one thing: it was time for a wine break and another video.

We sipped the red Côtes du Rhones, breathless and thrilled by how the night was going. He found another link he’d saved from years ago. This one was much more tame. It was literally called, “Hot Girls Having Sex on the Stairs.” It is exactly what it sounds like. Our attention drifted to each other, as we weren’t totally captivated by the film. Master J flipped me onto my back, and started that “eating-me-out-like-a-dog” thing I’d been craving. He licked, he drooled, he moaned, he bit, he grinded…I watched the screen. A brunette in a strap-on, a blonde being fucked by her, the moaning, the motion, his mouth…

Before we knew it, the video was over and we had been going at it for at least two hours. Doggy-style, missionary, legs on his shoulders, oral, cowgirl, reverse-cowgirl, more doggy-style (my fav!). It was like a sex bomb went off in our apartment! The sweat, the sounds, the breath, the background video, the wine (did I mention he was feeding me wine and chocolate during? Such a wonderful Master).

Before we knew it, we were spent. Another break.

This time, he treated himself to a beautiful glass of Aberlour Single Malt Whiskey, as I browsed pages of porn. My search: porn for women. I started a video while Master J poured his whiskey. A tall, slim brunette opened the scene for us. She undressed slowly, as a man came in. Her masseuse. He lied her beautiful, naked body down on a table – face up – and applied a tremendous amount of oil. He rubbed her down slowly, beginning with her legs, her stomach, her breasts. Master J, of course, was bored. I was NOT!

The masseuse moved back down to her legs, lifting them up and rubbing the backs of her thighs, moving towards her pussy and ass. He massaged, he played, he rubbed. (Writing about it is making me tingly – where is my Master when I need him?).

From here, we moved onto more domination videos – hardcore: masks, whips, ties, breath-play, abduction – all female-female! It was like a pussy smorgasbord! How had I not ventured into porn before?

Four hours and five videos later, Master J and I collapsed into each other on our apartment floor: both panting, dripping wet and covered in his come…

He didn’t clean me up. We both sat together, dirty, before we served our second rounds of orgasms.

Verdict:

Do I recommend couples to have porn dates? Abso-fucken-lutely. If it’s your cup of tea, I say go for it!

How did I feel at the end of it? Connected to Master J in ways I didn’t think were possible as a result of mutual porn watching! Seeing him getting aroused by the porn gave me an outsider’s view of the desires of the man I love, whilst still participating in the fun. There was something kind of sacred in watching him watching the “other” – someone separate from me. There were mixed feelings of thrill, jealousy, invasion, profound lust, a deeper knowing and desire for him.

What I liked about this experience?

  1. It was a new experience, and that alone has its own taste of excitement (adventure, thrill)
  2. I was able to tap deeper into my own desires, and explore certain aspects of my own heteroflexibility from a distance – in a secure place, with the person I love (exploration)
  3. The sex was just straight up AH-mazing! The porn added another level of heat (enhancements)
  4. It provides ideas for actions, positions, situations, that I wouldn’t have necessarily thought of on my own (creativity)
  5. I now want to buy a dildo (I am a vibrator virgin!)* (realization)
  6. As eluded to, it brought me closer to Master J, not further apart, which many people assume could happen. Making it a “couple” activity has strengthened our sexual connection (bonding)
  7. It gave me more images in my mental masturbation bank, which I used to my advantage the morning during a solo session (imagination, recall)
  8. For me, it gives something extra to watching porn. This isn’t to say that it can’t be pleasurable to watch it alone, but having this been my first true porn experience, having done it with Master J, the idea of having a solo porn session is less appealing for me. Two is always better! (connection)
  9. It’s sparked this idea: Porn Party! Imagine a room full of people watching porn and just going to town, whether with themselves, each other or their partner (yes, please!) One day, maybe. One day.* (planning)

*Ideas for future experiences/articles – stay tuned

Things to keep in mind: I think about the scene from friends where Monica believes she’s discovered Chandler’s sexual desire for “shark porn.” Instead of making him feel weird about it, she embraces that part of him, and actually buys videos of sharks and tries to watch it with him. What I’m getting at is, the worst thing you can do is judge each other for your sexual desires. I understand sex can be a difficult subject for anyone, as it’s been made taboo in our society and many cultures. Asking for what you want, and confiding in your partner about your deepest desires can be a daunting task. Having a porn date can be a great place to start! It can expand your imagination together, whilst allowing you to learn about your partner’s fantasies and internal sexual individuality, as well as sharing your own. I recommend communication before, during and after! Make sure you’re both enjoying what’s happening, and stop if needed. There are no rules. The 4+ hours spent with Master J didn’t just include sex, but a lot of discussion about what we were enjoying, not enjoying, how we felt in general, for each other, etc. This is part of the bonding and learning.

For me, this experience not only taught me that I do, in fact, enjoy porn, but now I am one step closer to fulfilling my cuckquean fantasy. This isn’t to say that watching Master J fuck another woman is remotely like watching porn together, but it was a small, successful experiment that proved him being turned on by others is, well, a turn on for me.

To end this, for anyone who is interested in porn dates – or curious about cuckquean fantasies – yet fearful of the “green” side of things (jealousy, resentment – the inability to take back what has been done, etc.), I recommend this article: I Get Off on Watching My Boyfriend in Bed with Other Women. It is specifically about cuckqueans, but it can be applied to other scenarios whereby a third party (including on-screen stars) is present, and jealousy may arise.

“…instead of letting it cloud my judgement and take over, I was like, Yes, I’m jealous, but this is what I enjoy most about it.

If you do decide to have a porn date, I recommend the following names/sites. Why? 2 words: Ethical Porn. These producers/directors ensure safe, diverse and tolerable environments for their actors/actresses; many have won industry awards for their work; many are considered feminist porn. As well, they have real people with REAL bodies:

For porn reviews, visit:

What ethical porn sites do you subscribe to?

Until next time,

Fuck-well, friends!

1 Comment

  1. Well, indeed, watching porn with my girlfriend was very nice, she was watching a lesbian movie while I was licking her, very exciting! keep it up!

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